Relationships are hard - don't rely on Italy

As a 38 year old woman looking to unsettle an unsettled life I fear what is down the road for me.  Moving to Italy will be about me and making a future for myself, not about finding love but I'd be lying if I didn't say that I hope love will come to me there. 
What frightens me is the ever turning marriage/ divorce situation throughout America.  Love and Marriage just doesn't seem to work.  And it isn't always about infidelity, it's anything that makes you believe less in your ideal relationship.  And you start to feel like you're settling.   
Relationships are hard.  And as I get older, they become scarcer.  I had a date ask why I hadn't been in a relationship in 3 years and I really didn't have an answer. I can say to myself that I don't want to get involved  because I'm leaving, but when I leave I'm not sure I'd be any more open to love. 
And Italy can't solve that for me. 

Shiny Red Ball Syndrom

Oh I'm so bad at blogging.  This is much more difficult than I imagined.  I want to say "this just might not be for everyone" and give up but I actually WANT to do this.  I actually think I could be good at it (if I could just focus).  Focus being the operative word.  I think I have the Shiny Red Ball Syndrom.  I can start out all gung ho on a project, a book, ROSETTA STONE and then boom - a shiny red ball goes by and I lose all focus.  
I'll need to find reinforcements...